I'm Going Bananas

i think im going bananas...that's how you express it when you think your life is no going through the path that you liked or even planned. In other words your getting crazy...insane

But this banana here doesn't describe me at the moment (but i do have some going-bananas-thing). I was visiting some of our kids in one of our areas when i spotted this thing on the just hanging there and i just cant resist snappin' at it even though my phone's camera is just 2 mega pixels, i mean this is a high tech world were living in and some already got phone cams that reach to 10 mega pixels so its embarrassing to open my phone in public eye.... lol... but really i dont care... my phone can text and call and i can listen to 13 mp3 songs... who cares if its obsolete? i dont for sure.

going back to bananas, this pic made me walk down childhood memory lane... we used to have lots of them in our backyard and my grandfather would harvest it and we would all come running and pick the smallest fruit, hide it... cover it in plastic bags and salivate for a few days in anticipation for it. Its not that i really love bananas but there is a thing that i cannot describe that i feel every time i opened my carefully-wrapped portion and find it ripe and ready to eat. It is almost like a sense of success.... my anticipation has been rewarded and it felt soooooooo good...
Actually i think i am just imagining things with this anticipation vs surprise thing.... we will see what comes with it.....

but between me and me? i hope that its like my wrapped bananas.. i'd find it ripe and ready for the taking....

the beginning of ....

this here is the beginning of my life's unpredictable, and confusing existence.. oh in just some sense

I WOULD HAVE LOVED YOU ANYWAY (Trisha Yearwood)

If I'd've known the way that this would end
If I'd've read the last page first
If I'd've had the strength to walk away
If I'd've known how this would hurt

(Chorus:)
I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've loved you anyway

It's bittersweet to look back now
At memories withered on the vine
Just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time


(Bridge:)
And, even if I'd seen it coming
You'd still've seen me running
Straight into your arms