why i love HIM

do i love him because he is too precious to me?
that loving him would mean my life?
do i love him because he is my happiness?
that without him i am nothing? lost?
what is being lost anyway?


one morning, i wake and called his name
didn't i do the same thing then?
but this day is different to me...
quiet different.


my thoughts crowded the room
calling the same name i've known
why this feeling unknown to me
 keep braggin' and pullin' me
from the person i've known to be?


i let my eyes go wanderin
maybe... yes, maybe i could let my emotions
go as a drop of rain
but no! i can't deny this feeling anymore
that keeps telling me -
"you love HIM"


i let my eyes go more beyond the scene
the bleak cold morning
the old weary sun
the lonely rugged mountains
the dropping leaves,
the empty highways
even far far away


but my thoughts keeps on forcing me to HIM, back to HIM
i look like a girl in love!
i whispered
Jesus... Jesus... Jesus...


why do i him so?
and of course i should know
He had loved me first








*by: Lani Gatumbato*

hoping

according to apostle paul; the 3 geat values are faith, hope and love. faith and love are well understood in the church, even if our practice of them may leave much to be desired.

hope, however, is a neglected virtue. it is that certain confidence and expectation we have concerning the future God has prepared for us; as such, it is of crucial importance since it will shape our motivations. what we hope for will determine how we act and how we spend our lives.

so you maybe in the deepest of tunnels... carrying the most burdensome worries... crying over a deep hurt... disappointed over a failed expectation --- u may wish to be dead at times

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...and most importantly, God has something great prepared for those who continue to hope in him. it may not sound substantial to some but for those of us who have experienced his goodness, nothing can equal to this truth.

- not like this -

our future is not  bleak like this...

... but brighter than this :D

   when something begins you generally have no idea how it will end. the 2 years stay on a work place becomes 5 years... the status you thought you would change in 3 years remains the same :D; the people you thought will just be passing becomes the friends you lean on... the relationships you thought would last a lifetime has ended way shorter than you could ever imagine leaving you weary and guarded and the person you have never ever thought to love becomes soo central in your life that it scares the sugar out of you.
   planning for the future.. trying to predict the future...as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow... but the future is always changing; the future is the whole of our deepest fears... and our wildest hopes
but one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself.. the future is never the way we imagine it (sometimes)


   there are some of us that spends lot of time focus on the future..planning it working toward it. but at some point you realize that your life is happening now! not after school, after work or after your wedding day but right now .......... this is it, its here.. and often times, if you're not careful, you miss it.