let it be forever

it's been awhile since my last visit. i am just dropping by with this old song that my cousin's and me loved so much 12 or so years ago. keeping this on replay for 4 days now :-)

In a world of broken hearts, love is just a word
Used so often, what it means is blurred
People grow so hungry for a love they can believe
Will they find it here in you and me?
Oh, you know you must be careful
If it's love you're promising
You can never, never, ever speak it lightly
It should cost you everything

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Love has come from God and in this love we share
People see an image of Him there
It can be an invitation that leads to deeper truth
The kind of love they find in me and you
Oh, but we can be a witness
Right before their eyes
A living love that's rooted in
The very love of Christ

I don't know what this world may think of love
Oh, but let our hearts remain true
To the notion that love goes beyond just emotion
Into faith, into hope, into trust

a heart like mine

of all the hearts in the world

i've only one to give

so insecure, a desperate pulse

racing to Your embrace

that You could want me and seek me

is more than words could ever say

that You would love me and see in me

a pearl of price, thrown away

heart like mine

how could it be worthy that You'd find

a way to redeem this hardened clay

twisted and broken

oh Father God above

the wonder that You'd love a heart like mine

i had given way too much time to something in my life that i have unintentionally given my God the left-over. in my head I was thinking, “God will understand, He gave this to me. surely he will not begrudge if i take care of something that was clearly a blessing to me”.

i remember that i was scared of anything at all that would “steal” my attention and devotion to Him and my ministry. i was careful, too careful to the point of inaction, that i would displease him by prioritizing other things in my life. i tried to balanced my time, my priorities, my wants, my desires, my ministry and everything else but I always thought that God was the center of my life.

lately that has not been the case. it is different now. my priorities have shifted and i know I have been aware of it but was too caught up with the niceness of everything to really mind.

then God in all his gentleness sliced up through my foggy little brain in a way that only He could. i could not resist him. He does not just want me to balance things out; with all the things that i want on this side and Him on the other side. He wants to be above all things in my life. He wants to be my life, the source of everything good and perfect.

It is undeniably true that when we behold God as he is, we will see our real nature. Our selfishness. Our stubbornness. Our pride.

i was mortified. i am selfish. i am stubborn. i am proud. And i really do not have anything. i looked at myself and had to hang my head. Shame on me.

for months i felt nothing. i was not numb, i just felt nothing. i ignore the gentle tugging of the Holy Spirit because i thought that I’m okay.

i am not.

i keep coming back to God because i want something from him. i did not come to him because i want to make him happy again or because i love him, but because I needed something and  i he alone has the power to give it.

i have kept doing it to the point where i got so weary and tired with my own foolishness. i was shameless.

but God is waiting for me. He has waited for me. He was so KIND. It is His KINDNESS that has led me to repentance.

I am sorry. I was sorry.  

it is not easy letting go and letting Him take over. even with the knowledge that he only wants what is best for me. but that is faith. something I have to learn.

God is good. this time its not just a trite thing to say.. it’s truly experiential.

i keep falling in love with you Lord.

every beat of my heart, breath that I breathe

through that season that change
your love remains

my hiding place my home

i keep falling falling in love

random awesome

loving this song recently. only one of the four that i keep on replay on my pocket tunes.

It all began

At the show  island one weekend
I was a friend of your cousin uncle said
"hey how you've been"
And with your checkered yellow-ed shirt on
And my Reebok converse shoes on
Let's watch something random (walked the debris filled beach)
Turned into something awesome 

And I smile I love no, 
I laugh happier somehow
No I don't know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No, They don't know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
We'll figure out one day, 
What happened on your 24th 34th birthday
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/yuna-random-awesome-lyrics.html ]
It all began with a simple
Confession
You I had an urge to kiss me you and
I was on the verge to miss you (i did miss you, i do..)

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okay fine.... i  tried to re-phrase the lyrics... i am NOT a lyricist!  

Could You be Messiah to Me

could you be HEALER?
to a heart that's been wounded
in a battle that's never seen?
could you be TEACHER?
to a mind of confusion
tell me what does this for me?

are you DELIVERER?
of an imprisoned feeling in chains
can you set my spirit free?
And just one more question
allow me this question,
could you be MESIAH to me?
could you be MESIAH to me?

could you be FATHER?
to a soul that's been abandoned
by a world too busy to hear?
could you be FRIEND?
to a helpless survivor?
can you take away my fears?

I heard them all sharing
this new-found conviction in them
Are you all they made you to be?
And just one more question
allow me this question
could you be MESSIAH,
please be MESSIAH to me..

Now I've been looking for
someone like you
and I'm so tired,I'm tired
I've read every book,
and I've sang every song
my mind may be right
but my heart feels so wrong
Tell me how much further
can my life go along
which way do the roads lead
where do I belong?

Are you FORGIVER
of my most unknown secrets?
PROVIDER of all that I need?
can you be BROTHER?
the one who knows better
would you now stand in the lead?
When all this is over,
all the thunder and lightning
in the daylight just what will I see?
The answers to my questions,
to all of my questions..
Could you be MESSIAH to me?
Could you be MESSIAH to me?
Could you be MESSIAH,
please be MESSIAH to me...

my life is in your hands

Life can be so good

Life can be so hard

Never knowing what each day will bring to where you are

Sometimes I forget

And sometimes I can't see

That whatever comes my way

You'll be with me

My life is in your hands

My heart is in your keeping

I'm never without love

Not when my future is with you

My life is in your hands

And though I may not see clearly

I will lift my voice and sing

Cause your love does amazing things

Lord, I know, my life is in your hands

Nothing is for sure

Nothing is for keeps

All I know is that your love

Will live eternally

So I will find my way, yes

And I will find my peace

Knowing that you'll meet my every need

When I'm at my weakest love, You carry me

Then I become my strongest love, In your hands

all i ask of u

No more talk of darkness,

Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you . . .

Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .

Say you need me with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me . . .

Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime . . .
let me lead you from your solitude . . .

Say you need me with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
That's all I ask of you . . .

Say you'll share with me
One love, one lifetime . . .
Say the word
and I will follow you . . .

Share each day with me,
each night, each morning . . .
Say you love me . . . you know i do

Love me -
that's all I ask of you . . .

give in to me

pls pls pls.... give into me...