make me love you, Lord

been couch potato all day today. still lying on the couch and staring on my blank screen. i do not know what to write. 

every time i thought of writing something
i want to cry.
no, actually i want to bowl. 
i don't really know why
but of course that statement
is all wrap up in a lie.

have you searched my heart my God?
Have you found something of yours in there?
Have you seen the rough edges?
the callous and the actual emptiness?

You might not believe this my God
but despite all that 
this heart is longing for you
for your fulfillment 
for the flooding of your grace

this heart wants to fall in love with you
again and again and again
this heart wants to see beauty in everything
knowing that you are its everything

make me love you Lord
make me long for you
make me hunger for you
devastate my heart with your presence

that i may live my life
every single minute of it for the purpose
of serving you, of pleasing you, of loving you

Big Problems. Big Answers.

"sometimes  greatest answer to prayer happens when you have no place to go to but God".   carol cymbala

big problems. big answers.

bad reports. dreams crushed. hope lost. the perfect time for God to do his work.

the impossibility of our situation means nothing to God. he delights in bringing answer when all we see are obstacles. he does some of his best work when there is no money, no time, no hope, no way out.

are you at the point of giving  up? have you done everything humanly possible to solve the problem but you feel there is still no answer? its too big for you to fix, too overwhelming to handle, too much to bear.

fall on your knees before God. you have nowhere else to turn. then, that's just the time when God says to you, relax my daughter. It isn't over until i say it's over.

big problems.require big answers. and that's God specialty. 

by: sarah young

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trusting God's greatness and faithfulness is a process that i still need to learn over and over again.