Sunday, October 23, 2016

road trippin'

there is always something so majestic about being on top of a mountain and looking out to a great expanse of greens and sky and sea. 

the great minds in mcof combined powers and decided that we should do our annual retreat in negros occidental. i immediately opposed the idea for two reasons:

first, i am from negros occidental!  if we are going on a tour it should be on a place i've never been (selfish self is of course subtle. saying things like, "we cannot travel typhoon is coming!)
second, i am still recovering from a mini pneumonia and still feel weak even though i already have missed work for more than 5 days.
i was thinking, maybe a nice resort around the island would be good or a quick over night stay in some place outside the city. no chance.

we left for bacolod city at 1 am. some of us did not sleep at all. we did all the crazy stop over stuff on top of don salvador mountains and take crazy amount of photos and then went directly to campuestohan highland resort. we headed down to civilizations again and rest for an hour, then eat dinner in diotay's place and head to a carnival area in the city and stayed there until 11 pm.  i was already a walking dead. i was swaying as we find our way to the car. 

when my body hit the bed, i was out but when i opened my eyes it was morning already! not fair!
when all my complaints is done, i would say that we had a really super good time together. relationships deepen, laughter comes easily, conversations are abundant to the point where someone has to do referee duties for everyone to have their time to express opinions, ideas or just 

a windmill. a prominent stracture in campuestohan higland resort

pretty girlfriends

hand holding walks

paddle time on a small lagoon. 

spring water meeting with salty huge one

spotting a cacao fruit after many many years.

the amazing view of cebu city from a million miles away.

Monday, October 3, 2016

what i get excited about

21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.[a] For the law of the Spirit of life has set you[b] free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law,weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin,[c] he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us,who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.

romans 7:21-25 to 8:1-4

Jesus is really amazing. 
first, he established the law so people can live up to his holy & righteous standard.
but then the flesh is weak. it cannot wholly follow the law that God has given us.
then, Jesus was sent to us so his death and resurrection can set us free from the law of sin & death and we will not be condemned anymore because his death and resurrection has already satisfied the righteous requirement of the law!
thank you Lord. 
what i can do is always trust in the Lord. be super grateful that God is full of grace and that he loves me to death. literally to death. people can tell me they love me to death but only Jesus' love were able to do that. and he did do that. so i can have the life of freedom. 
free to love
free to serve
free to be peaceful
free to fully enjoy his favor
free to serve his purpose and get really giddy and excited about doing it.
"if i claim to be committed to the eternal truth of the Word of God, the it must be reflected in my values, in what i prize, in where i put my time and my money, in what i get excited about.
so what do you get excited about"?
asked howard hendricks in his book, teaching to change lives.
now, i am excited about two things in my life. 

change & growth.

not just with me but also with the people surrounding me.

God is always showing himself strong and powerful in everything. not just nudging my heart but breaking it open slowly and sometimes painfully so i can not just be aware but fully awake in witnessing his presence and his hands at work.

He is lovely as my chosen song of worship.

despite my seemingly perpetual tiredness this past 3 days i was still able to go third wheeling with my sister and roy.

if roy takes the picture, you can be sure it's either blurry or weird. lol
sneaking in a cr selfie for the husband

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

grace & truth

14 And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son[a] from the Father, full of grace andtruth. 15 (John bore witness about him, and cried out, “This was he of whom I said, ‘He who comes after me ranks before me, because he was before me.’”) 16 For from his fullness we have all received, grace upon grace.[b] 17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.

john 1:14-17

that verse.

i was able to relate to it because i hear some people say to me things like, "well you're so graceful to them and doesn't want to offend them by telling them the truth". this makes it seem as though grace and truth are two different things when, in fact, they are one and the same. you cannot separate truth from grace and grace from truth as they are both embodied in the person of Jesus Christ.

sometimes, we want to tell another person the "truth" and we want to do it in a way that would "touch" him or in a way that would really make him feel guilty and embarrassed because, we are the bearer of truth after all! there is also reasoning from us that says, "if we always coat the truth with nice and gooey words, how can he/she learn"?!

we forgot that it is not our job to "convict" that person. it is the Holy Spirit's job. 

this verse reminded me that grace & truth are married together. the only reason we want to "correct" or "tell" a person about his failings or weakness is because we want to pull him back and want him to grow in his relationship with Jesus. nothing more. we don't tell somebody about their mistakes just to satisfy our pride and our own ego and rub it in their face that we are in the right and they need to come up to where we are because they are in the wrong.

"we who are strong ought to bear with the failings of the weak" 
romans 15:1

you guys, i love doing journals & piping hot milk tea in the mornings!

Friday, September 23, 2016

september 23, 2016

in my distress i called to the Lord; i cried to my God for help. from his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.

psalm 18:6

"if you don't see the need for  prayer, it maybe because you're living in self-sufficiency. prayer isn't for the competent or complacent. prayer is for the needy and dependent. the goof-up. the thirsty".

it is funny when i read this commentary about prayer because i do not feel self-sufficient consciously. but a quick evaluation proves me wrong. i do act like i am self-sufficient.

i have a house (even if it is a rental), i have enough clothes (sometimes they are more than enough) i have a good social life, my friends are amazing people, i have a church that i really love, a family that is consistent, a husband that adores me... etc.  so yes i do feel pretty self-sufficient even if i do not admit it.

and that is really scary. to be feeling okay and less needy for God.

the book of psalm has so many instances of prayer from people who are passionately in love with the Lord.

some words they use were:

i thirst for you
i long for you
i desire to be in your presence
i hunger for you

what about me? what words would i use for what i feel for God?

even if i say that loving God is not all about feelings it is impossible not to feel passionately about Him. no one can say he is in love and not feel anything at all.

when i have found my true love (husband dear), there has not been a day that goes by that my heart does not search and long for him. not an hour went by without my brain being so filled with thoughts of him.  i have written countless journals and letters expressing how my heart beats for him, how much i miss him so much that it hurts literally. i used to think that those were just metaphorical expressions but no! i have felt it!

so God, i would say that i am desperate for you. i want to be more desperate for you and what you can accomplish through my life and the life of my husband.

i want this little heart of mine to continually be broken by the things that breaks the heart of God.

may i continue to "abuse" prayer. pray & pray & pray.

all the faithfuls do. only the faithless don't.

Monday, August 1, 2016

anniversary week

helping store memories through photos. this was an amazing time with the husband.
we have decided this time to not travel around but stay and explore cebu more. we did a quick visit to the family in bohol though and it was an great time.

in front of the famous flower guitar in the lobby of the newly opened robinson's galleria. 

boys will always be boys, i guessed 
robinson's galleria has a really nice interior

double anniversary celebration at buffet 101

bohol beach club

and he really has to do this

the white sand beach in bbc is soooooooo tempting and amazingly serene

the weather was amazingly sunny during our stay. the breakfast was good, the staff was helpful and nice. there was not much people of the beach and it was  really good time for us to relax. we had a lovely day

hennan resort, panglao, lobby

view from the bar, hennan resort, panglao

breakfast at linaw resort

of course this was ranley's idea

buffet spread at hennan resort, panglao
cebu port, ferry departing

waiting for the ferry

patiently waiting for me while i had my nails done

one sunday's korean craving led us to this tiny diner in marina mall

when he agrees to model, grab it! that seldom happens

the hair is the result of the running to pose
toist temple, cebu

breakfast at abaca baking company

honestly forgot the name of most of the food we ate, but this one is especialy good

husband's choice of breakfast, a bagel

anniversary dinner at no. 9, restaurant

coffee at jpark, mactan island

God has given us 1 whole year of blessings. I am so grateful for the man that he has blessed me with. everyday, he tries to tell me and show me how important i am to him. we both only pray that our relationship will grow and mature in time and our greatest desire is to be able to bring God honor through our lives. 
I love you, Boss.