Tuesday, October 30, 2012

i have my proof!

finally! i have proof that i work with kids! i know i have already mentioned that i work in one of Compassion International's field project here, here and here. and i did mention that it is a fulfilling job. but i think im re-evaluating that statement....
i left my purse on the top of my desk to talk to some parents and settle some things outside. when i got back somebody pointed out that i have a new artwork scribbled on my purse. this is a hand-me-down but i love this :-(. Oh well, i think i will need a new one now.

re-evaluation done: this is still a fulfilling job! and the artwork isn't all that bad, right? now i have a conversation starter! :-)

and to answer the un-asked question: no, i still don't know the artist who did this but i have my suspects. one 15 months old and one 3 years old :-)

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

a heart like mine

of all the hearts in the world

i've only one to give

so insecure, a desperate pulse
racing to Your embrace
that You could want me and seek me
is more than words could ever say
that You would love me and see in me
a pearl of price, thrown away

heart like mine

how could it be worthy that You'd find

a way to redeem this hardened clay
twisted and broken
oh Father God above
the wonder that You'd love a heart like mine

i had given way too much time to something in my life that i have unintentionally given my God the left-over. in my head I was thinking, “God will understand, He gave this to me. surely he will not begrudge if i take care of something that was clearly a blessing to me”.

i remember that i was scared of anything at all that would “steal” my attention and devotion to Him and my ministry. i was careful, too careful to the point of inaction, that i would displease him by prioritizing other things in my life. i tried to balanced my time, my priorities, my wants, my desires, my ministry and everything else but I always thought that God was the center of my life.

lately that has not been the case. it is different now. my priorities have shifted and i know I have been aware of it but was too caught up with the niceness of everything to really mind.

then God in all his gentleness sliced up through my foggy little brain in a way that only He could. i could not resist him. He does not just want me to balance things out; with all the things that i want on this side and Him on the other side. He wants to be above all things in my life. He wants to be my life, the source of everything good and perfect.

It is undeniably true that when we behold God as he is, we will see our real nature. Our selfishness. Our stubbornness. Our pride.

i was mortified. i am selfish. i am stubborn. i am proud. And i really do not have anything. i looked at myself and had to hang my head. Shame on me.

for months i felt nothing. i was not numb, i just felt nothing. i ignore the gentle tugging of the Holy Spirit because i thought that I’m okay.

i am not.

i keep coming back to God because i want something from him. i did not come to him because i want to make him happy again or because i love him, but because I needed something and  i he alone has the power to give it.

i have kept doing it to the point where i got so weary and tired with my own foolishness. i was shameless.

but God is waiting for me. He has waited for me. He was so KIND. It is His KINDNESS that has led me to repentance.

I am sorry. I was sorry.  

it is not easy letting go and letting Him take over. even with the knowledge that he only wants what is best for me. but that is faith. something I have to learn.

God is good. this time its not just a trite thing to say.. it’s truly experiential.

i keep falling in love with you Lord.
every beat of my heart, breath that I breathe
through that season that change
your love remains
my hiding place my home
i keep falling falling in love

true grace

a couple of weeks back, someone sent me this message : "you are God's true grace in my life". 
*sniff * --- teary eyed me was truly touched. really?

Fight bravely, for habit overcomes habit - Thomas a Kempis

by grace, and only by grace, i can live unafraid. i can impact the world. i can take risks. i can love fully

two of the many nice things from last week:
charles and keith wallet gift from @alonanorth
blue berry-filled bread from bread talk

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

surfin' ribs

i'm not a food blogger. far from it. but i'd like to share photos about this food place that my sisters went into last week-end. the place is called surfin ribs. ruby has already been telling me about this place and that the food is good so i was a bit excited. when we got there the small diner was packed and we had to wait, we were number 5 in the waiting list! i would just usually convinced the others to go and find somewhere else to eat that we do not have to wait and stand but this place has promise so i keep my mouth shut plus i have already smelled something that whipped my appetite :-)
photo courtesy : google images

we order the baby back ribs since the name of the place imply that that is their specialty, spicy crabs and two orders of hot wings. 

photo courtesy : google images
  we were given an apron so we will not blame the resto if we ever spilled spicy sauces of our clothes :-). it was the first time ever that i have eaten with an apron wrapped in front of me. we have to dig in and use our hands but it was one of the most delicious and satisfying meal i've had in a while. thank you to sister (youngest) for showing us this place.
photo courtesy : google images
photo courtesy : google images
   one of the things that i love about the place also is that it's very... regular. you can eat fast without any fork or spoon and nobody minds you. they also have the most interesting washing area. check out the photos below:

photo courtesy : google images

photo courtesy : google images
  the interior
photo courtesy : google images

Friday, October 12, 2012

random awesome

loving this song recently. only one of the four that i keep on replay on my pocket tunes.

It all began
At the show  island one weekend
I was a friend of your cousin uncle said
"hey how you've been"
And with your checkered yellow-ed shirt on
And my Reebok converse shoes on
Let's watch something random (walked the debris filled beach)
Turned into something awesome 

And I smile I love no, 
I laugh happier somehow
No I don't know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No, They don't know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
We'll figure out one day, 
What happened on your 24th 34th birthday
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/yuna-random-awesome-lyrics.html ]
It all began with a simple
You I had an urge to kiss me you and
I was on the verge to miss you (i did miss you, i do..)

okay fine.... i  tried to re-phrase the lyrics... i am NOT a lyricist!  

Tuesday, October 2, 2012


a few photos from a long time ago. having fun with my best friend's baby's. 
"it takes a village to raise a kid"

alianna keith (kit-kit)

adriel (eboy)

angel shenise (bachochay)